A Broken Misfit

I don't know if it is the continuous decline in temperature causing my hand and feet to become extremely numb and cold that produced this nagging feeling of emptiness inside my heart.  I should be thankful that's why I feel guilty feeling the need to rant and to feel bad about this whole idea I've decided to put myself into.  It would have been easier if I were back home, I could just hide in the warm shell of my room and just pour out my heart to its content but things are way too different here.

Here, where people are always in a rush, they have no time to stop and smell the flowers nor be in awe of the beauty of the seemingly endless horizon.  Here where people rarely offer a smile but constantly look down at people under their noses. Here in the place where prosperity abounds but it's difficult to be content... Here is where You have taken me... yes here where gentleness is weakness and tears unnecessary. I feel like a misfit and yet I've always been a misfit; so once again I know deep within me that this is where You want me to be.

Like the broken jar of clay with so much flaws, yes with much flaw, will You let them see Your surpassing power and glory and not the prideful, ugly heart I carry?

For now, I pray for grace to carry on with the task You've set ahead for me... I'm trusting You with all of my brokenness.

The Thirty Days After...

The first thirty days of my faith journey and never did your grace and mercy ever ceased...

Thank you will never be enough my Savior King.

I had a literally sweet 33rd.

My 33rd birthday cake...

A good reminder for my birthday...

Fusion of the west and the orient...

The aftermath


Central is not my kind of place. Too noisy to suit my taste. I walk the foot bridge leaving behind the tide of strange faces.

The ferry ride from Central to Tsim Sha Tsui reminded me of my childhood memories of pump boat ride from Dumagute to Siquijor. :)

Some err Korean and Western Tourist enjoying the view of the harbor. And yes the two guys we're displaying their "aegyo" too much... :)

Walking around with people of other culture and race feels great.  We always find little favors like the Filipina woman who offered to take a picture of me and Olen together as well as the German guy, whom we politely declined. And yes, some Chinese mainlanders thought we were Chinese.  Do we look Chinese? We also get to see Spiderman. Yay!!!

We ended the walk along Avenue of Stars with Bruce Lee and Jacky Chan (who happened to be one of my biggest crush when I was in Preschool) and finally at Hong Kong Space Museum, I would surely find time to visit the museum soon, on a Wednesday when it's for free!  :)

I think I've gone overboard being a little "selfie" but what's the point of all these?  The thing is, never have I imagined to be here... to see these... I had an all together different plans.  Plans which I've cried, perspired and bled for.  Plans so grand it pushed my Creator in such far distance.  I'm so thankful He is almighty and loving that He didn't let me have my own ways so I could learn more to trust His perfect will.  I still have those selfish dreams lurking around my heart and my head but His relentless love will not give up on a wretched fool like me.

Now I stand still in this very fast moving city... This vast crossroad causes my heart to beat wildly with anticipation of how far and how long this journey will take.  Trusting everyday to my ever faithful Father and starting it off with the first thirty days after... :)

One thing have I asked of the Lord,

    that will I seek after:

that I may dwell in the house of the Lord

    all the days of my life,

to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord

    and to inquire[c] in his temple.

Psalm 27:4